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Stolen (and if I ever find you I'll break a Dell over your skull)
by MissChaos

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Submitted on: Sep 06, 2008 - 11:37:40 AM
Last Updated: Sep 06 2008 - 11:37:40 AM
Keywords misschaos (22)miss chaos (11)electronic (301)downtempo (60)stolen (4)
Description This song is not finished and probably never will be because some a$$ broke into my home and stole my computer in July which had the only working copy of the Logic Pro file. The only thing I have is this early iteration which I bounced to iTunes. It's probably 85% finished and I was really happy with the way it was turning out.

I think I'm finally coming to terms with the fact that this was a huge blow to my verve and I haven't touched my keys since the day of the burglary. (Thankfully most of my files were backed up, so the real loss was this song and my last song, Apogee.)

I'm really f'ing angry and I have no one to direct this anger toward, so I suppose I've been silently imploding. I'm uploading this unfinished and stolen song as part of my 12-Step program in hopes that I may be able to someday get my verve back.

Sorry to be such a downer. But this is why I've been absent from MacJams lately.
Hardware Korg Karma, iMac Core 2 Duo (RIP)
Software: Logic Pro
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Feter said 124 days ago
Stolen
spheric ...emotional ..and full of spirits ..
very well mixed and arranged ..some beats very well
set that it sounds like a third dimension on my
headset ..that was brilliant ..thnx alot for sharin !!!!

MissChaos said 123 days ago
Hi Feter
Thanks so much. And good to "see" you around again. I hope you are doing well... I think of you often and miss my MacJams friends.

Skean said 124 days ago
I feel your anger & sorrow
And its like someone has rap you... My prays goes to you my friend.
Very nice song this sad and beautiful in the same time.

Take care
----
Kenta

MissChaos said 123 days ago
HI Kenta!
Thanks for the comment. You pretty much nailed it. It sucks to have created something with so much of yourself only to have it ripped away. I never even got to say Goodbye. :-) Maybe I'll be able to re-create this, but I can barely remember the settings I used and the soft synths I tweaked...

Rocha Malhada said 124 days ago
Yep
People who steal - SUCK

. - Harold

MissChaos said 123 days ago
haha
Karma, baby! And when did you become Repulsive Landlord? hahahaha... have I been gone THAT long?!

biba_nova said 124 days ago
Nice track
Sorry to hear about the burglary.

Hopefully you will get back to a place someday where you can finish it

b

MissChaos said 123 days ago
Thanks Bryn
I believe in Karma. I may try to recreate this someday. It helped to get a bit of encouragement from my friends here. I hope you are well!

lavalamp said 124 days ago
I think.....
this sounds excellent. Many lovely sounds here.

Sorry about all the misfortune. It gets better.

Dave

MissChaos said 123 days ago
thanks David
means a lot to get some encouragement. :-)

drakonis said 124 days ago
There is only one way to get even
and that is to show them that stealing your computer cannot steal your spirit, creativity, and beautiful talent.

I have lost many things in life, stolen, broken, erased... and I feel so much for you... it is so hard to get up the energy and impetus to start the project over, and try to re-create what you have temporarily lost.

But I hope you know that I for one always enjoy *whatever* you share... it is always touching and personal, this song is no exception. It has that elegant MissChaos touch, and is worth re-building from the ashes of loss.

I am delighted to see you back here again, but am also very upset to hear about your loss. I hope everybody is OK, given the circumstances... ugh!

ttfn,
Eduard

MissChaos said 122 days ago
thanks Eduard
I'd probably feel much better about this if I could, you know, cuss someone out or at least watch them try to log into that computer which was password-protected... :-) It's nice that it's gotten the Drak seal of approval... I think I will try to recreate this one but it won't be easy. I hardly remember the settings I used and instruments I chose. We'll see. Thanks again and Hi to the family from Ms. MIA.

futzpucker said 124 days ago
What a treat
I always enjoy knowing that you've posted another song, Stacy. I do love your compositions - they are full of sonic delights, rife with emotion, take twists and turns the listener doesn't see coming, and demonstrate depth and skill.

I hope you heal from this violation and return to composing as often as you can. You are bursting with talent, and your music will only get better and better. The world needs what you have to offer, Stacy. I hope you find time and desire to continue using and developing your formidable gifts.

MissChaos said 122 days ago
thanks
Your words are huge. Really. Thank you for always being a source of encouragement and inspiration.

thoddi said 123 days ago
same experience
I had a burglar in my house a couple of years ago... Only he didn't touch my guitars... But I feel for you...

Your music is so cool. You have such timing and feeling. Very cool beats. And you make very cool pieces of art/graphics as well...

All the best:)

MissChaos said 122 days ago
Hey Thor
Thanks! Glad your guitars were spared. :-) What's weird is that my synth and all my gear wasn't touched. Just the Macs. I guess our thief didn't know jack about "gear". ha!

cjhoose said 123 days ago
tragedy
I've also suffered logic file loss lately (Grrr) but an entire MAC gone... I hope you recover.

It's too bad because I love this creation. Gonna listen again and again and again...

MissChaos said 122 days ago
Hey Caroline,
Sorry to hear about YOUR file loss too! What is it with all these file losses and thefts?! I guess I had it coming since I haven't really had a music file tragedy in the 10+ years I've been doing this. Anyhow, I'm looking forward to trying to get active here again. Thanks as always. :-)

Mystified said 123 days ago
transcendent....
Most of your work feels this way to me, so I'm very very glad you chose to post this and share it--despite the fact it is not 'finished.'

It is beautiful, even in its unfinished state (yes it is!)

Keep creating and keep transcending....you always do! ;)

MissChaos said 122 days ago
thanks Cat
I can always count on you. I need to catch up with you, too! ;-)

borisluxx said 123 days ago
Very Sorry...
that you have been violated. Often times, life isn't fair. At least you and your family are alive and safe. As for the lost music files, computer etc., those things can be replaced. Humans are a bit harder to re-create. I don't mean to minimise your anger and frustration Miss C, but worse things could have happened and I am very sorry for your loss. I am confident that with your amazing talents, you will be able to finish this track as well as many more. Thanks so much for sharing this partially finished song with us. You never cease to amaze me with your awesome tracks. I hope things get back to normal very very soon for you guys. Take good care! Peace!

-Richard

MissChaos said 122 days ago
Hi Richard!
Thanks for the comfort. You're absolutely right and I totally agree. It just sucks especially hard because these songs are sometimes our "babies", you know? And they usually come from a place that's personal and heartfelt. But you are right and that's the kind of perspective I need. I miss all of you!

TheWhizzies said 123 days ago
DAMN!
That sucks big time. This piece of music, however, very much does not. Good to hear you had most of your files backed up. Say hi to the family and I wish you a speedy recovery!!!

Eric

MissChaos said 121 days ago
Hey Eric
Thanks for the pat on the back. Say hi to the Crazies at your house too! We should have another twins-N-twins chat. That was fun!

guitapick said 123 days ago
Have missed you...
...and am very sorry about the burglary. I've experienced that and know how you feel.

Big drag about losing the tune. I never read the description 'till I hear the song. Was going to ask where you were selling it. I love it.

The core's still here and you can re-create (maybe add a dash of "I HATE EVERYTHING!!!!" in there, too). It's a wonderful piece...



MissChaos said 121 days ago
I've missed you too!
And you can expect the "I hate everything" song at some point. :-) I love that idea. It's like emo for adults. Wow, I'm totally humbled that you'd even think to buy this unfinished tune. Thanks for such wonderful encouragement. I hope you are doing well and enjoying the start of Fall!

chikoppi said 123 days ago
Yuuuuummmmyyyy!
Great thought given to the timbre of the percussion instruments. Really nice blend of tones in the ambient and harmony voices. Terrific sense of space and depth. An emotional state captured in sound.

To quote a current quip from one of the political candidates: "Its not how often you get knocked down that matters, its how quickly you get back up." Be angry. Be really f*cking furious. Put it in music and then let it go. If you need some industrial guitar for the effort I've got your back!

MissChaos said 121 days ago
DUDE!
I'm totally on it! Angry guitars... hell yes. You'd be the first person I'd ask. :-) Thanks for the encouragement. I may just take you up on that...

Dj French Toast said 123 days ago
Let us know if they catch em
well send down the hardest macjams crew and beat em to death with a bag of cotton balls ..imagine that horrible death ..it take a whole day to die and they'd deserve it ! Thieves SUUUUUUCK ! Oh yeah cool sound bed !

MissChaos said 121 days ago
Hahaha!
Yeah! Now that's what I'm talkin' about. All except for the cotton ball part. I say we beat 'em with big ol' bulky Dell laptops since they stole not only my brand new iMac but also my trusty, been-there-through-it-all Powerbook. Ugh, I could just cry...

kassia said 123 days ago
Stolen
Incredible sounds here. This has a total Ulrich Schnauss feel to me (hope you take that as a compliment!). So sorry about the theft, but I admire you for putting this out here, along with all your raw emotion. This is full and lush with a great beat underneath. And I love the space you've left in it, feels very wide open and able to breathe. A great piece - thanks again for sharing it with us!

MissChaos said 121 days ago
Shay!
Oh my gawd, I LOVE Ulrich Schnauss so you totally just made my day. No. You made my month! Funny too because I had been listening to his new album a bunch when I was working on this song. Wow, thank you. You are too kind.

Reinholt56 said 123 days ago
Hi....
This is a great Miss C mix and sounds very good as it is presented here.

I'm sorry for your loss but you should bounce back into things, otherwise it's victory for the scum of the earth and we all miss your beautiful, well thought out and unique music.

Take care.

Paul

MissChaos said 121 days ago
Thanks Paul
Been awhile! I hope you're doing well!
Thanks for the encouragement. I've actually felt better about it after posting this. I hate to seem like such a pity party thrower, but I guess I just didn't have an outlet for that anger. I'm thinking I may do a really angry tune next... Thanks as always for your friendship and support.

Ejh said 122 days ago
Ohhhh....
That story gets me pissed. And I was already less than my happy and smiling best...

And I really like this. I think one of the things that goes on for me with your stuff is that I like how you think, musically. You step off the beaten path without sounding like, 'Hey, here I go, I'm steppin' off the beaten path now, y'all...' I like how you use rhythm at slow tempos, and how a lot of slow harmony adds up to a sense of melody...

I don't have any sense of 'lack' about this apparently early and unfinished iteration, except, I guess, the ending...

Sorry to take so long to hear it. It's great to hear your music again, though.

Ed

MissChaos said 121 days ago
Aw, Ed
Thanks. Even if you're less-than-smiley, you still manage to make me smile. :-) <----- see? even on the internet! Thanks for the comment -- and the encouragement. I miss my pals here.

Bubowski said 122 days ago
Beautiful...
sonorities and textures. Love the lo-fi beat, the gentle synths...very emotional, somber and wistful feeling. Another MC masterpiece. Thanks you for sharing this...indeed with music like this coming from you, recovery is only a matter of time.

--Graham

MissChaos said 120 days ago
Hey Graham
Thanks so much. I have a lot of catching up to do here...

Char said 122 days ago
I'll never understand
why thieves take pieces of other people's lives and leave empty and open wounds in their place. I'm so sorry.
This is beautiful and even if it won't become exactly what it was it will still be phenomenal in its own right.
This child has the same mother and same creative breath.
Thanks for sharing.



MissChaos said 120 days ago
Hi Char
Thanks for the encouragement. I feel much stronger this week after getting some positive feedback.

thetiler said 121 days ago
So sorry
that this happened to you. This pieces seems to have a feeling of calmness to it and of course much musical creativity and I hope you can glean alot from listening to this tune over and over and obtain a feeling of true distance from what happened !

Thanks for sharing this wonderful instrumental !


God Bless !!!!!

MissChaos said 120 days ago
Thanks Bill
That really means a lot. I've missed all of you!

sonnyjim said 121 days ago
Oh....
Theft is just the worst; I know it all too well........

It is deeply upsetting and unsettling, but........... time WILL give you your verve back, I promise.

Your song sounds very fine in it's near-completed state. I'm glad to have stopped in.

K.I.S.KISMET said 121 days ago
truly lovely
to hear new chaos! as usual amazing stuff. keep them coming..

all the best!

cjdaley said 120 days ago
nice song.
all the more moving from having been rescued, and truncated.

This song's something of a healer more than driven towards anger and agression.

lengold said 120 days ago
The track
has a really lovely gentle vibe to it and I can hear how much work has gone into it.
Just remember that the talent is within you and not a machine or logic track.
Cheers
Len



AcetyleneJukebox said 119 days ago
Hang in there.
I am very sorry to hear about your troubles. That is real shame. The track works pretty well as is except for the abrupt ending but I am sure that could be edited. Nice work on the synth and drum programming. If you still have the capability you should continue to produce your music. Perhaps channel that anger into a new song.

Pixelfrog said 118 days ago
Amazing Composition
Wow, this is the type of music I've been planning to try out, but for some reason I always end up producing faster songs.

I totally feel for you and what you've gone through. This is one of my worst fears and I can not even imagine having someone steal my master files! I back up like crazy but that's only good if the backup drive can't be stolen.

I hope we will hear more from you someday! You got raw talent!

jie said 107 days ago
cool
love the whole feel and vibe excellent work. sorry to hear about the bastards who burgled you hope their next shite is a hedgehog,probably loses a lot in translation from Scotland. Take care

MissChaos said 107 days ago
John,
That is hilarious... It translates pretty darn well. I hope they shit a hedgehog too. Haha! Golly, thanks for the laugh. Be well!

richardhowardjones said 80 days ago
CAN I HOLD HIS HEAD
while you run and get the DELL if you ever find the bum? I really like your stuff and this is great. No wise words about 'what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger'. Just a hope that you go on to complete this as you imagined it, though I like it as is. Love and best wishes from the Far East,
Rich

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Artist Bio I've been composing and recording electronic music for close to a decade now. I gravitate toward sounds that are melodic, organic and warm. Much of my music is thoughtful; stemming from my philosophical, political, and societal beliefs. Late...[more]
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